?Hello, this is ?Tragic Love: A Love Story? in the view of Marmou.
I don?t know Andrew?s
Japanese name so please forgive me by using the English version!  This
part is called ?The Zoo Of
Death? I took the name from a really GREAT book called ?The Princess
Bride? When ?The Dread
Pirate Roberts? was tortured there, by a machine that took your years
away, Scary Ne?. It?s a
great book! Love it!! The best! I have read this book three times! Hope
you like this fanfic! The
other fanfic that I am writting ?The truth the danger and the money? If
you are interested I am still
doing it, but I?m kinda stuck so please be patient with me!!!
   I want to say hello to these really nice excellent fanfic authors,
Nizardo, Jade, Kathryn, Joel and
Anita! Keep it up guys.
  I also want to thank some people who have inspired me to give a shot
at fanfics. Lianne
(excellent story?s! Love THEM!!) Razz (She?s totally cool!) Jade (Who?s
been so thoughtful and
her fanfiction are sweet!) And last but not least Kathryn (Who?s
fanfiction I look forward to
reading every weekend! Keep it up Kathryn !^_^)
  Please remember that I don?t know much about Cancer, and I don?t know
those really looong
words that doctors use to confuse patients (Lol) so you guys just have
to do some pretending and
pretend that this is all accurate. Thanks!! It isn?t the same as ?Tragic
love: A love story? the
ending scene is different from what I had before........ I think I like
this better.
Auston
Homepage: http://www.neptune.on.ca/~dmacin
Address: DmacIn@Neptune.on.ca
 Ps- As I was writing this I surprised myself...because I started to
cry........ It just hit me hard. I
didn?t realize how sad it was going to be... if your not into depressing
fanfiction and you want a
happy on get out now and read ?The Golden General? or ?Birids of
Paradise lost? or one of
lianne?s fanfic?s or Razz?s.......

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   I can not believe it! I had cancer, I was feeling sick. *really* sick
and I was feeling dizzy. I got
Andrew to drive me to the hospital. Thank God! That he was at home, I
couldn?t call Usako she
would freak and I didn?t want her to worry about me.
  The funny thing is...as I lay here in the hospital bed thinking about
the couple of hours that just
went by. I thought that I would be with Usako living long full lives and
having kids. Maybe two or
three. What three you think? Did you think that we were just thinking of
having Chib-usa? No, we
were plaining many more. Many more.
  Andrew as soon as he had found out what went wrong with me.......by
asking the doctors. Said
that I had cancer in the brain and that they (meaning the doctors)
didn?t know how long I was
going to live. Andrew also told me that Usagi was on her way. That
troubled me. I didn?t want
her to be afraid of me. I didn?t want her to see me like this.......
But, oh, I wanted to see her! To
hold her in my arms forever. To never let her go. I brought out a box
that I had brought a long
time ago and opened it. It was the ring I had brought for Usako. Gold
ring. I thought that this was
the time to ask for her hand in marriage. I wanted it too be the time.
  A doctor came in with a white suit on. I quickly shut the box and put
it behind my pillow. The
doctor had a tired sad expression on his face. He looked about his 30's.
His hair was blonde and
he had grey eyes.
 ?Marmou-san............. We have got the tests back and they came out
positive.? The doctor
looked at me to see what my reaction would be like . But, like I
said........ I already knew. The
doctor breathed in and continued.
?We, don?t know how long you will live...... It could be years...
months......weeks...even days. We
can try and ease your pain, but that is all we can do. I am sorry.?  I
looked at him. This must be
hard for him........ telling someone this.
  He left.....leaving me alone to my thoughts......wanting to get
out...... I wanted to get out........I
wanted to see everyone again before I die. I didn?t want to be in the
hospital, I didn?t want to be
here. I felt one tear come down my nose.  I kept on thinking why? Why?
Why? Over and over in
my head. Oh, please Usako come quickly and take me away from this awful
place...... This.... Zoo
of death.
  What about our kingdom Usako? Who will be in my place? When I am gone?
Who? Who?
   STOP!!! get control of yourself Marmou.........you need to be strong,
can?t think about
yourself.... think about Usagi. Think about her.... how she smiles at
you when you take her to the
ice-cream shop. How she always falls down on her face........ how you
feel when your with her.
 Suddenly I heard a nose coming from the door, I looked up from my
sorrows and saw......... A
lovely sight, my Usako has come to see me after all. But..... she is
crying. I tell her to come to me
and sit beside me. I give her one of the most warmest smiles that was in
me...it wasn?t fake.
  She smiles back....that?s what I wanted to see her smile......her
lovely smile. She?s like the stars
and the moon and everything that is good in the world.
   ?Mamo-chan....... I?m so worried.....I...? She started to cry again.
I did the best I could to sooth
her pain and mine as well. I brought my free hand behind the pillow and
brought out the box with
the ring. She stopped crying interested in what I was doing. When she
saw the box she started to
cry more........ I opened it. To show the ring. ?Usako........... I love
you more then anything in the
whole world.......... Will you take a crippled man a dying man? To be
your husband??I whispered
to her afraid of her answer. She took the ring I was holding out too her
and put it on her delicately
smooth figures. I smiled and kissed her the best I could, everything
will be alright. For we shall be
together for the rest of our lives and.........beyond.

                                                     THE END

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   Well, what did you think? I?m surprised that you got this far. Did
you cry? I did warn you! I
cried and I was writing this fic! I still feel a little upset. Now I
have to go do something
happy......maybe continue writing the other fanfics....that I have too
do. *Sigh* Which ending did
you like better? The ?Tragic love: A love story?? Ending or this
one........ Even the title?s
depressing. Really I?m not a depressed person! Just felt like writing
the story I wrote for my friend
who died............... a couple of days after I sent in the fanfic. It
was a very sad funeral. Thank you
for all of those who wrote to me about my other fanfic, It means a lot
that people care......from far
off.

                                                         YOUR FRIEND
                                                            AUSTON