FAILURE Fanfic By David Fox Legal Crap: Sailor Moon not mine. Story mine. Use without permission, me do bad, bad things to you... you really don't want to know what me do, do you? I miss my friends. They were the only people to really understand me, to accept all my faults and still want to be seen with me. They understood what it was like, having these immense powers. They would have died for me; in fact they did, several times. How did I repay their friendship? I failed them. All of them. When the Inners and I went to D-Point to face Beryl and Metallia, I failed them.... simply because I wasn't powerful enough to prevent their deaths. I failed Mamoru, because I couldn't re-awaken his memories soon enough.... if I had, Bery couldn't of killed him. I failed him. I stepped onto the ice, faced the evil that had destroyed the Moon Kingdom... and won. But it didn't mean anything unless I had my friends and Mamoru with me. As I died, the Crystal heard my wish of wanting to be a normal human being with all of my friends, and reacted. They - and I - were brought back to life. No memory of what had transpired. I, for one, was extremely pissed when Luna forced her way through the block in my head and made me remember. I didn't want to remember how I failed my friends. But I did. And, eventually, they all had their memories restored as well. It was just like old times. That was the time when we fought off the Doom Tree, and soon after that the Brat came. The Brat lead us to the Trip, the Trip where we learned of our future and true destinies..... And I died again. But at least no one else did. I didn't fail them that time. Deathbusters showing themselves,....meeting Uranus and Neptune,....learning of Saturn, we were brought up to face a hard choice. Should we kill Saturn, before she wakes, or should we attempt to find another way? Uranus, Neptune, and Pluto urged Saturn's death, but I wanted to find another way. Ultimately, my choice won out, but not without some major bitching from Uranus and Neptune. They challenged me, challenged my position as Princess and leader of the Senshi. They claimed that, although I saved the world - and Saturn too - I failed because I couldn't take on the hard choices. We fought, and I proved myself to them. I did not fail in my mission to protect life. Nehelenia came next, Pegasus arrived also. Pegasus help us by fighting together to protect the world against Nehelenia. Chibi-Usa was thrown off the platform during my fight with Nehelenia, I quit fighting and jumped off the platform. As big of a brat that she is, she would one day be my daughter. I loved her. I couldn't fail her again, like I did when Mistress Nine took her heart crystal. Ultimately, she saved me, not the other way around. When Nehelenia came back, and stole Mamoru away from me, I went after him. I wouldn't even wait for the others to join me. I had to save him... Because I couldn't fail him again. Then came Galaxia, and her damn Sailor Animates, and we gained unlikely allies in the Starlights. I felt drawn to Seiya, even though I had a boyfriend. He was different from Mamoru. Handsome, yes. Smart, yes. He acted like Mamoru did, back when we first met. But he was different. I couldn't figure it out. I did when we learned of each other's true identities. He (or should I say she?) and his/her brothers/sisters failed to protect their princess. That was it. We had both failed to protect the ones we love. They're down there, you know. Right now. Seiya, Yaten, and Taiki. They just watched me defeat Galaxia. But before that, they saw me fail my friends once more. Galaxia took their star seeds. First the Inners - Mars, Mercury, Jupiter, and Venus. Then Uranus and Neptune joined her side (seemingly) after losing their own, and took Pluto's and Saturn's. Uranus and Neptune died. And they did it because I failed them. Failed them because I couldn't convince them that I was strong enough, smart enough, good enough to handle it. Even now, floating in mid-air, with Galaxia gone, I can't help but feel that my friends are watching me, hating me, knowing that I failed them once more. When Galaxia freed the star seeds, I thought that my friends would come back. But they didn't. I tried using the Silver Crystal to bring them back, but again, nothing. I failed them. They fought beside me, protected me at the cost of their own lives, put up with all of my bullshit, and how did I repay their friendship - nay, their love? By failing to bring them back to life. I did it once before, why can't I do it now? Because I'm weak. Too weak to save my friends, after all they did for me... "Usagi?" Author's Note's: Well, that's that. This isn't the first story I ever wrote, but it is the first to be sent in to a Fanfic archive. The first story got out of control and had to be put down. Very sad. I've got to give credit where credit is due: to Serena (CodeNameMoonYuy), who proofread this and made changes where appropriate. Thanks to her, this fic is better than it was. Well, now I can get to work on my lemon fic, "M&M: Michiru and Mamoru!" {Hides as Haruka bursts into the room, waving her Space Sword around.} Haruka: WHAT?!?!?! Author {hiding behind dead plant in the corner} Gotta go, bye!!