Title: Avoiding Destiny
Author: Anjel
E-Mail: LiLAnJeL84@hotmail.com
Rating: PG

	Of course you all know that Sailor Moon and it's characters 
belong to Takeuchi Naoko, Kodansha, and many other large miscellaneous 
companies.  

	Mamoru is 20 in this. Usagi and her senshi are 16.
 
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			         Part 1

	How can one say that a girl like me was as innocent as a new 
born baby. I have seen bloody battles through the eyes of a girl who 
was barely a teenager. I have fought nearly every single day since the 
beginning of my teenage life. I was looking forward to the day I turned 
14 since that was the age of which I was older than everybody else in 
my school. But I had to go through the path of destiny. I pick up a 
black cat with a crescent moon on its forehead and my life goes topsy 
turvey. I become the pretty sailor suited soldier, Sailor Moon. 

	Everybody wishes to be a hero or heroine in their life. I, 
too, have had that wish but now, I wish to forsake it. A person never 
learns anything unless they go through certain obstacles along the way. 
I have gone through them, day after day after day. I shall now be 
punished for my petty wish. It was a little girls dream of making 
the world a better place. When shall I ever feel peace at last? WHEN?! 
I fight evil on behalf of love and justice. It's a joke. I fight on 
behalf of justice, all right. But never again shall I fight for love. 
I used to put love before anything in my life. But what happens? It 
gets thrown back into my face. For example, my boyfriend, Mamoru. He 
was supposedly my eternal love, my one and only. I was played like 
a fool. He never told me why he broke up with me. I just supposed 
that I was too much of a klutzy and airheaded fool to notice that he 
had fallen out of love with me. 

	Another example of how I was played are my so called friends. 
'Friends till the end' they say. 'I'll always be with you.' I was 
living a life of illusions where everything was right in the world 
and that there were no youmas stalking through the streets of Tokyo. 
They had always took me at face value. All my friends never expected 
me to do any better. They never had any confidence in me. Therefore, 
I had no confidence in myself either. I trusted my friends to be there 
for me for all times. Yeah right. I put too much trust in them. I 
never lived up to their expectations. Who expected their leader to be 
nothing more than a coward? Or the princess that they were searching 
for, a crybaby? A princess is suppose to be elegant, intelligent, 
graceful and all the things I shall probably never be. Maybe that's 
why Mamoru hates me now. He's even worse than he was when he called 
me Odango Atama and teased me relentlessly when we had just met. 

	I suppose that people think that Sailor Moon is a brave warrior. 
Risking her life for the people of Tokyo. Saving the world from evil. 
Some assumption. If they only knew how pitiful the real life of the 
so-called warrior of the people was.

					-Usagi

	That was what I had written about two months ago. Mamoru had 
left me, my friends deserted me, my guardian fled. Luna had been 
repulsed of the sight of me lying in my bed, crying my eyes out for 
the umpteenth time after a week of being dumped by Mamoru. We had had 
a serious argument about how my senshi duties were down right pitiful 
and the school work I handed in were so bad that even a demented person 
would be ashamed. She was right. I had at least tried to do the work then. 
Nowadays, I would just sit by my bedroom window and stare out all day. 
Ms. Haruna had long ago gave up on giving me detention. I would 
usually come in half an hour to an hour late to class and say nothing 
when she yelled at me. I did not put any effort in my senshi duties 
so I was discharged. More like thrown out by Rei because she was 
disgusted at how I moped around doing nothing whatsoever. Kicking me 
out didn't do anything anyway. The Wiseman had been greatly weakened 
so they did not need my help. Chibi-Usa was my only communication to
and from the senshi since I had long since stopped going to the 
meetings. Fortunately, our friendship had stemmed from sympathy and
not pity.

	My life had taken a sharp turn from happy go lucky feeling I had 
had before I had met Luna to dark, dank and pitiful. I had no goals in 
life and nothing that I wanted to do before I died which could be anyday 
caused by some monster draining your life's energy from you. After 
thinking my life over, I decided to get some rest. For numerous times, 
I have thought about committing suicide to get away from my life. But 
that would be the cowards way out, which was the path I had walked 
across numerous times. I had decided to stick to my life and see what 
it had to offer. Hopefully good events.

	But all things good always come at a certain price...

	As usual, the next day, I woke up, got dressed, and went to 
school. I never bothered with breakfast anymore since I was always late. 
The day before, I had managed to do my homework unlike any other days. 
I had nothing better to do yesterday so I did it. I slowly walked to 
school, knowing that either way I was going to be late. I cross the 
street and walk away from the corner that I always manage to run into 
Mamoru as to avoid giving myself any more pain. I walked through the 
school yard and into my classroom. To my amazement, I was actually early 
for class. I had a smile on my face for once. I sat at my seat and waited 
for the rest of the students to come. The rest of the day was absolutely 
perfect. Since I was in such a sunny disposition that morning because I 
got into class early, I managed to pay attention in class. At the end of 
the day, I left with the rest of the students with no detention. I walked 
home with a slight spring in my step. 

	When I got home, nobody was home other than Chibi-Usa. My parents 
and my brother had went on a trip to the mountains and because of my 
extremely low grades, I was punished by not being able to go with them. 
Since I was in better moods and that I finally felt that moping around 
would do me no good, I did my homework. After I was done, I played some 
games with Chibi-Usa after she did her homework of course. It was 
starting to get dark and there were still no signs of my parents or 
Shingo. I was starting to get worried. It was nine o'clock when there 
was a person ringing the doorbell. I thought it was my parents and 
answered the door. Instead of my parents, there was a policeman standing 
in the doorway with one of my uncles standing behind him.

	"I'm sorry to tell you this, but your family has been killed while 
coming back from the mountains. A drunk driver was on the wrong side 
of the street and your family's car swerved to avoid them however, the 
railing of the highway gave way and the car fell off the cliff. They 
were killed instantly."

	I stood there, staring in disbelief at the news I heard. My body 
was numb, I could feel nothing. I fell on my knees staring at the floor, 
trying to deny what had happened but it was no use. I let loose the loudest 
and most sorrowful cry of pain anyone on the planet has ever heard. I felt 
arms hugging me close but my tears denied me a clear picture of the person. 
I buried my head in their shoulder, not caring who it was that comforted me. 

					***

	I woke up the next day feeling tired, filthy and miserable. I had 
cried myself to sleep last night. I got out of bed and went downstairs. 
I saw my uncle downstairs cooking breakfast while talking to someone 
on his cell phone. When he saw me, he got off the phone to speak with 
me.

	"How would you like to move in with me in San Francisco?" he asked.

	I thought of the pros and cons of the situation. My life was 
miserable being able to see Mamoru but not hold him. My grades were 
downright pitiful. My parents were dead. My so-called friends rejected 
me. Sailor Moon will never be needed in Tokyo again since the Wiseman 
was getting weaker and weaker. I had no more reasons to stay so I 
nodded yes. 

	For the next couple of days I began packing. I then remembered 
Chibi-Usa. If I went away, nobody would take care of her so I would have 
to put her in the care of somebody else. She decided to write a note to 
them about my dilemma. I wonder what the senshi would say. I hadn't 
bothered writing a private note for Mamoru because he no longer cared 
for me anyway. In the note I wrote:

To the senshi and Tuxedo Kamen:

	I know you guys don't care for me anymore but I needed to tell you 
about this. For once, I am taking responsible actions towards my life. I 
know you no longer need Sailor Moon for she doesn't exist anymore within 
the sailor senshi. Don't bother asking my parents. If you read the 
newspaper, you shall know what I mean. I need time away from this place 
so full of memories of good times and the bad. I took the crystal with me 
as nobody else can use it but myself. I'll keep it as safe as possible. 
I hope you guys can handle whatever that comes your way. Believe in 
yourself. It's funny that I never follow my own advice. I never believed 
in myself and you guys never believed in me. I suppose that is why I was 
never a great leader. 
	Please take care of Chibi-Usa for me. I'm very sorry to put her in 
any of your care in such a short notice. I can no longer care for her. The 
senshi of Time, Sailor Pluto has told me that her mother is safe in the 
future. They are taking precautions and making sure that it is completely 
safe for her to go home. All you have to do is take care of her for a week 
or so. I am very sorry to tell you this on such a short notice but things 
were not at their best between us.
	I suppose that I shall never hate you for what you've done to my 
heart, Mamoru I love you too much to have any bad feelings for you. I guess 
I can thank you for showing me the light that illuminated all of my faults 
that drove you away. You have moved on in your life, I suppose I should do 
the same.
	I love each and every single one of you. I'm sorry to have been 
such a disgrace to you all especially my guardian, Luna. I wish you all 
the best in your lives. The best you could do is forget about me for I am 
a coward for running away from you all. The next time you see me again, 
hopefully I shall live up to your expectations as a fighter and as your 
princess.

					If ever we meet again
					Love,
					Usagi 


	"Small Lady? Can you come over here for a minute?" For the past 
week, Chibi-Usa and I cried together knowing the bad news. I had taken 
to calling her Small Lady since that is what I called her in the future. 
Sailor Pluto had dropped by to tell me of the progress of Chibi-Usa's 
return to her rightful time. Reluctantly, she had answered my question 
about who Small Lady was. My daughter. She claims that I had told her 
to tell myself. She would have preferred to not let me have any notion 
about my future though. I'm going to miss the little brat. I know that 
she would grow up to be the most beautiful lady in the whole universe 
knowing that she looks so much like me.

	"Yes, mommy?" she asks quietly as to not to alert my uncle.

	"I want you to give them this letter at the meeting that they're 
having today. You got that?"

	"Yes," she says sadly, "I'm going to miss you."

	"Me, too. Come here." She walks over to me and I give her a big 
hug. She buries her head in my shoulder and I feel something wet soaking 
my shirt. I hold her at arms length and see tears streaming down her face.
	
	"What's wrong?" I ask softly.

	"I'm probably not going to see you ever again," she said 
dejectedly. I smile at her and kiss her cheek. "You'll see me in the 
future."

	"But mommy and you are not the same."

	"How about I see if Pluto would let you visit me or let me visit 
you?" She brightens up at the thought and hugs me tighter. She falls asleep 
in my embrace and I lay her down onto my bed. I go to her room and pack 
up her stuff. 

				***

	The next day, I teach her how to open a sub-space pocket and put 
things in them. I did not want to bump into any of the senshi at the 
Hikawa Shrine. I watch her walk to the temple and go back inside when I 
could no longer see her. Fifteen minutes later, a black limo with tinted 
windows pulled up outside the house with my uncle riding in it. The 
driver helped me with my 7 cases of luggage and we went off to the airport. 
I got onto my uncles private jet and opened my English book. After half 
an hour of studying, my eye lids got heavy and I fell asleep. 

	After an amazingly long trip and a long nap, I finally set foot 
onto the United States. San Francisco was to be the beginning of my new 
life. I was getting excited about meeting my cousins, Justin and Alexander. 
I have never seen them other than in pictures. Alexander and I had often 
wrote to each other. I would write in Japanese and he would write in 
English. He would get better at Japanese and I would get better in English. 
I could read it fairly well since I read all those letters from Alexander. 
I then remembered the senshi. I wondered about their reactions to my 
letter. I was disgusted with myself for not having the courage for facing 
them in person. I pushed the thoughts out of my head and concentrated on 
my new life.

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Until next time...

So, what do you think? Is it good for an amateur? Well, I thank my friends 
Samantha and Shanley for convincing me to send this story in. Thanks you 
guys! Wait for the next chapter, hopefully next week if I get some good 
results from the first part.

*~Anjel~*
LiLAnJeL84@hotmail.com