Title:    And I'm still here waiting.
     Author:  Chibi-Mercury
     Email:  Puppy65221@aol.com
     Pre-reader:  Princess Starina
     Her Email:  LoriSenshi@aol.com

     Hey!!  This is a stand alone story
I wrote.  That means there will be NO
other parts to it.  OK-Z?  Hee hee.
Seeya, and Enjoy!
     Oh yeah, lest I forget, Sailor Moon
is created by Takeuchi Naoko, owned
by DiC and other people.  And I added
bits and phrases of songs.  I claim no
ownership to songs, or Sailor Moon.
     thanks to many song writers such
as GooGoo Dolls, Jewel, the Grease
Movie, Celine Deion,  the Beatles, and
other assorted people.
     PLEASE DON"T SUE ME!!  Besides,
is ten cents really worth it??  Hee hee
Thanks!  And Seeya!
     Chibi-Mercury

        If you need someone to cry on,
don't you know that I'll be there?
Even if I'm tattered and tired, I'll still
listen, listen for you.  You who will
call my name softly, to show that
you still care.
          No matter how many times you
leave me, I'll be standing there waiting,
waiting for you.  There's emptiness in
my spirit where you used to stay, and
now I know that nothing will ever be the
same, so until you fill the emptiness that
my soul craves, I'll still be waiting, waiting
for you.
        Because all I can taste is your sweet
breath, and all I can breathe is your life.
And sooner or later, I know you'll come
back, you're not that strong without me.
But I'm not strong without you, and you
were meant for me, as I was meant for you.
I know you'll come back, so I'm still here
waiting, waiting for you.
        Nothing will hold me back from you,
your sweet lips, your sapphire eyes, your
ebony hair, I'll still be looking, looking for
you, every where I go.  Like a child
awaiting Christmas, and the gifts that
await him in the morning, I'll still be
waiting, waiting for you.
      And how could you leave me here and
make me cry?
      And why did you save me oh so many
times, my heart is yours, won't you come?
        I'll wait for you, even if it leads to
my own downfall.  Don't you know
how I cared for you?  Your rejection
of me is killing me softly, and I'm lying
against a phone booth, lying for
support, as I shake and choke with
pain, hurt, tears.  You've left me again,
but to you I will be true and I'll be still
standing here waiting, waiting patiently
for you.
        You told me it's not my fault,
you've told me that you changed, but
under your tough exterior, I can see
the lie, don't you even care about me
even a teensie bit?  I wouldn't care if
you changed for the worse, didn't I love
you still as you were a Dark Kingdom
warrior?  Didn't I love you as you lost
your memories of us, when the aliens
came to earth, didn't we still have a link,
even when hope seemed lost, we still
had each other.  Why can't it be the
same as then?
I want to know love, I want to know it
with you.
        My breathing is choked with tears,
and my stomache is filled with
emptiness, and I ask silently 'why?',
but no answer you reply.  But I'm still
waiting, waiting for you, for I know you'll
come back, I can see it in your heart.
You who will return when you realize
your mistakes.  You'll see what a
treasure I am, and you'll come running,
running for me.
        No, nothing will hold me back,
and I'll be standing there, waiting for
you.  You who will come running, and
hold me in your arms once more.  I'm
crying tears of joy, as I think of when
you'll come back to me.  You who will
stroke my hair softly, you who will
whisper words of love, you who will
realize your mistakes, and apologize a
million times, and I'll accept, because I
love you.  And you'll always be for me,
as I will be for you.
        And now as I lay, crying endless
tears of pain into a pillow, tossing and
turning in the darkness of the night in
unsleepable circumstances, as the
moon shines brightly on my body, and
sweat gives me a shiny effect, I wait.
Waiting for you to come back.  Waiting
for you to admit you were wrong.  Waiting
for you to defeat your stubborness and
fears.  Waiting for you.  Oh I'll never sleep
again.  No I'll never sleep again - no, not
until you show you care.
        Please come back to me, I love you.
I gave up my heart to show I cared because
I thought you felt the same as I.  You're the
closest to heaven that I'll ever be, and I don't
want to lose you, my love.  My empty, dull
eyes once held hope, and now I see nothing,
except you, you, who treated me so cruely,
you who walked off into the sun, escaping
my presence, and the life has left my soul.
Now as I cry by myself, I see how wrong I
was, and I kick myself for being so blind,
yet I feel no pain.  I have lost all feeling
because of your cruelness, but I don't want
to lose you.  And I ask myself 'why?'
        Your cold words sting me like thorns,
on the beautiful roses you gave, so lovely
and sweet, with fragrances that know no
compare, yet the beauty hides the deadly
poisons, the hurt, and the pain.  Yes, now
that I recall, our love is like a rose, as you
said so long ago.  But my poem has nothing
to do with its miraculous blooming, or even
it's ugly wilting, no nothing to do at all.  And
as I sit here waiting, waiting for you, I wonder
and compose in my mind.
        Our love is like a rose; beauty
with no compares on the outside, but
the deadly secrets lie within.
         And as I'm sitting here waiting,
waiting for your return, I wonder why,
why didn't I peel away the exterior of
the mystic flower, to see what lay inside?
But the display is so pleasing to the eye,
none would have thought it to end so
cruel.  But I'm still here waiting, waiting
for you.  Because I'm loyal and I'm true
to you.  And nothing's gonna change my
way.
        No, nothings gonna change my
world, nothing's gonna change my
world, but you're trying to wreck it.  I
know it'll get better, when I see you
smile, even if the grin is not for me.  I
see it in your eyes, past the hate,
regret, the pain, I see you still care for
me, and I'm still here waiting, waiting
for you, because to my heart I must be
true, and my heart is telling me you.
        But now I see your back, turned
towards me, as you walk off into a
crimson sunset, straight and stern,
icy and cold, and I feel more tears
springing up in my eyes.  My body is
a well of soft sea water, never running
dry.  My tears remain aflowing.
        And I ask myself 'why?'
        Never have I felt so alone with the
sinking feeling of horror, as the rock
hits my stomach with the freezing
realization.  I'll always love you, and
you are mine, something you cannot
deny.  And deep in my soul I know,
that you'll come back.  And I'll be
waiting, waiting for you.
        You can say you no longer care
for me, but that is just a lie.  I know
you still love me, I can see the hurt in
your eyes as you walk by, carefully
avoiding me.  And you're killing me
softly as I'm waiting for you. Because
you're the only one that I'll love.
        Deep inside we both know that
you'll come back one day.  Destiny
holds us in its palm, eternally linked
together forever.  Yes, you'll be mine
forever.  But for now you're killing me
softly.  Declaring words you do not
mean.  And not saying my name, not
once, with meaning.  Your icy glare
as you push me away tells more
than words can say.  I feel the tears
welling up in my eyes, and I try to
fight, try to swallow the urge to let
my fears escape me.  But I am
unsuccessful, and I hiccup in fear,
as tears stream down my face.  I
love you, don't you feel the same?
And I'm not strong without you, you
wall has torn us apart.  Tears are
trickling down my my face, and I ask
how can you go and do this to me?
        Inside are you gloating with joy
as you watch me crumble to bits and
pieces?
        Do you enjoy killing me slowly?
Watching me slowly dwindle away?
Do you deny the fact that you'll come
back, I'm waiting for you to call my
name.  And I'm still standing there
waiting, waiting for you. Waiting for
you to stroke my hair, waiting for you
to kiss me in the moonlight, waiting for
everything to be right. I sit, not noticing
the rain.  My hair is plastered to my
skin, I'm choking to death upon my tears.
 And I'm dying inside, and every one
knows it, you see.
        I gave up my heart  to love you, I
thought that you'd feel the same way.
        But you're cruel words sieze me, tear
me apart.  And I'm crying in pain, yet you
refuse to notice.  Never have I felt such
sadness.  Never have I felt such rejection.
Never have I known such pain, as you walk
off without glancing at me once more.
        There's no one left to talk to.
There's no else to blame.  I know it's
my fault you left me here, and I'm
dying inside.  Cause I showed you my
feelings, I showed you who I was, I thought
you could appreciate my being alive,
yet you leave me, lying to rot on a
curbside.  Letting starving beasts pick
at my uncaring soul, as the soles of
thousands of shoes walk over me.
Never have I know such pain.  Never have
I felt such rejection and neglection.  But
I'm still waiting, waiting for you.
        And as you walk off into the
sunset, I know you'll come back to
me someday.  Yes I know you'll come
back to me someday.  Yes I know.
And you'll come home to me someday.
Deny it all you like, but it's the truth,
and as I die of pain, sadness, rejection,
neglection, I'll still be there waiting,
waiting for you.
        As the last bit of life leaves my
soul, I'm waiting for your return.
You who will be able to bring my life
back, you who will show me your love.
You who will take me back and call
me yours.  You who will give me the
kiss of life, and I'll be yours eternally.
And all I know will be peaceful and
content.  Please come back to me,
I'm still standing here waiting, waiting
for you.
        Please come back to me, my
dear Mamo-chan.  I love you.  And
there isn't anymore I can say.
        The end.
        That was supposed to sound like
a blur.  Cause when Mamo broke up
with Usagi, I always wondered what
she felt like, because the anime doesn't
really tell how she reacts, except what
you'd expect.  Of course she was sad,
but how did she really feel?
        That probably didn't make sense
either.  Oh well.  There is no other parts
to this story, it's meant to be by itself.
        Now, since you are done reading
this, go to my name, that sits by the
title of this story, and mail comments
to me.  He he hee hee.
        Okay, Seeya,
Chibi-Mercury