Author's notes, ok this is just a little story that I am doing off the top of my 
head (and heart) because I am going through this as I write this, it's just a 
way to relieve some of the stress that is being built up. It might not be a very 
long story but it is a way to get it off my chest and I am hoping that I will 
get some advice from any readers about what I should do, and remember this is 
based on real-life I am just borowing the names for a while, there are no scouts 
or mushy love scenes just harsh reality, but please help me if you can. This is 
just a little something I thre together at midnight. So pardon all errors.
just for the sake of the story, motoki and mamoru and all the inners are the 
same age. and usagi's b-day is now in February. The whole story is in Usagi's 
pov.

Standard Disclaimers Apply as Always


Unexpected Twist of Events
By: Cresent Moon Princess
E-Mail: Cresentmoon16@yahoo.com
Rating: G-PG



Today was the first day of school for my senior year, which I was late to, as 
usual. I think that I am going to go back over my junior year just for you. It 
started when ::goes back to first day of junior school year:: I found out that I 
had classes with all of my closest friends. I even had class with Motoki and his 
girl friend Rekia. It's amazing that over the summer all of my friends seemed to 
have found that special someone, I was happy for them as always but a hint of 
jealousy rain through my veins, not that I was going to let it show mind you. It 
would make them all feel sorry for me, although there is this one guy that Rekia 
knows, I think his name is Lance (AN: I know it doesn't sound like a japanese 
name but it's my story), he is very cute. She introduced us and he seems like a 
bit on the immature side, always thinking about cartoons, and a little hyper at 
times, but who doesn't have their days. It turns out that we have the same lunch 
everyday, he is cute with dark hair and he is so tall, a good six feet tall, but 
he is sweet. He and I started to talk and we are hitting it off good so far, 
although he tends to have also have his bad qualities, of which I can over look, 
although I don't think that my parents could. But there is also another guy that 
Motoki knows, a good friend of his, by the name of Mamoru. It turns out that I 
don't have any classes with him, for which I am thankful, he tends to make fun 
of me as a person always talking about my looks, some say that it is because he 
likes me, but I highly doubt that. 

It is now close to the middle of the first semester, Lance and I are very close 
while Mamoru and I are as far away from each other as we can get. He has done 
nothing but talk about my grades and my looks continously, he really knows how 
to make an impression. And a rather bad one at that. It would be ashame if he 
and I were the only one left on the planet because then the human population 
would be non-existant, however if it were Lance and I, there would be nothing to 
fear. I guess you can tell who I am leaning towards. There have been several 
times so far that Lance has called me late wanting something that I was unalbe 
to give, although I still stood by him. Mamoru however has never called me or 
talked to me about anything other than how bad I am, Lance was there for me when 
I needed him. And that's what counts, I think. I really wish things between 
Mamoru and I could be different, I have seen him when he doesn't notice me and 
he is such a nice person, but am I really that bad of a person not to be able to 
recieve the good side of him, for once? It is torture not being able to talk to 
him like a normal person, without yealling and retorting sarcastic comments, but 
I guess it wasen't meant to be.

Now it is close to thanksgiving, Lance all of a sudden moved out of state and I 
haven't seen or heard from him since. So I am back to square one. No guys, save 
Mamoru and I don't think there is going to be any change in the situation there. 
Rekia is trying to help though, she knew how close I was to Lance and it's 
breaks my heart to know that I will never see him again. He is gone and there is 
no forwarding number or address, so what's a girl to do give up, I suppose so 
that's all I can do. I am just dreading what lies ahead for me in time, if all 
that's there is heartbreak then I would rather not live it. What's the point of 
being happy if you are too lonely to enjoy it. Many a night I have woke up 
crying after a dream I had of Lance coming back and I have taken many double-
takes of people at the store just hoping that one person was him, which none of 
them were much to my dismay, and disappointment. I suppose life goes on, but 
then again it might not.

Christmas, most of the time I would be thrilled around this time of year, but 
there is hardly anyone, save my very few and closr friends, to share it with. It 
is a sad time indeed, there has been no word from Lance or any change with 
Mamoru, just the same old lonely Usagi, and comapny. You would think that It 
would be easy to find a guy in high school, but they are all jerks, too hormone 
driven and self-centered to even try and have a relationship. It's amazing 
though, I never thought that I would see the day that I was worried about having 
a guy, it used to be that my grades, came first, but the lonlyness has gotten to 
me and is begining to take it's toll. But I still have my friends and my grades 
always need improving, so I hope that they will keep my mind off this for a 
while longer.

February, the dreaded day known as Valentine's day has arrived, wasen't 
Christmas and New year enough, why do they have to have Valentine's day. just 
another day for you to be with that someone, unless you happen to be the someone 
without a someone. O'well, the good news is that Mamrou finally cames to his 
senses and we a feirends now. The bad news is that Motoki and Rekia are no 
longer together, she thought that he was interferring with her studies so she 
decided to no longer see him, and she also broke off contact with me, for some 
reason unknown to me, and I ask again, am I really that bad of a person? Three 
days later, It is a miracle, who would have thought that Mamoru would ask me 
out, I never thought it would happen. I am over excited, my birthday is in a few 
days so maybe he can come with us. I hope that we have a lastinf relationship, 
it would be a shame to have finally gotten him to ask me out only to find out 
that it won't last. Or worse yet, that it was a joke or that it doesn't mean a 
thing to him. 

One month later, I can't believe it, rumor has it that it was a joke and that he 
went out with me because he felt sorry for me, although when confronted about 
it, he denies that he never said it, and that this has happened to him before, 
he goes out with a girl and a rumor gets started and then they break up, no 
questions asked. So I am the first to begin to dig for the truth, when I asked 
some of his classmates if he had ever said it and they heard it come directly 
from his mouth, they said that they had heard it but never from him. This also 
put my friendships to the test, the test between my hard earned love and a 
longer firendship, I never took sides although, I didnt knwo exactly what to 
believe, but after about a week or two the rumors stopped and life went back to 
normal. It turns out that Mamrou is also a friend of Rekia's and so she has 
decided to talk to me again, a desicion I am glad that she made. I confronted 
her about the whole ordeal and she said that it was very unlike him to say such 
things and that she too had never heard anything but good things about me. So I 
am still with him, and we are closer now that we have had our first test.

It is finally the last day of school, I am excited but little do I know that my 
heart is about to be broken a second time. Memorial day comes shortly after 
school is let out and I discover that my beloved Mamoru is leaving to live with 
other family members. They inturn live 350 miles away from where I am, we have 
been together for shortly over 3 months and since we have become inseperable we 
decided that all we can do is have a long distance relationship. I call on 
weekends using my cellular phone because of the no long distance and unlimited 
weekends, while we write each other during the week, we average about 2 letters 
a week each. And we have continued like that and we are about to reach our 6 
months anniversay next week. However like I have said to my friends, emotionally 
we couldn't be better, physically we couldn't be worse. It is the little things 
that you begin to miss, walking side by side holding hands, short kisses to let 
each other know that you love them, and just being held in the others arms, 
without a care in the world besides making sure that you are with that person 
for the rest of time. That's what I miss the most.

It is now less than a week before school starts, during the summer I got a job 
working at the local store and it's is amazing who you will run into. I am 
speaking of a certian person, tall dark and even more handsome than when he 
left. I was shaking and my heart was throbing in my chest when he came into my 
line to check out, I recongized him instantly, it was Lance!!!!! he has come 
back and his mom worked in the hair salon that was in the store, and he was just 
doing some shopping while she was working. It is amazing how much he has 
changed, he was more mature and he was a much better person to be around. He 
asked me if I was seeing anybody, to which I told him about my Mamoru, and we 
had a long discussion about that. It turns out that I still care about him 
deeply but he refuses to allow me to do anything while I am still seeing Mamoru, 
however, he also won't allow me to break up with Mamoru to go with him not that 
I was going to, but I want more than a basic friendship. While we were by 
ourselves, he allowed me to hold his hand while at times he drapped his arm 
protectively around me, but nothing more. At one point in time I would have 
given anything to have this problem but not now, not when I had Mamoru for so 
long and I hadn't seen Lance in almost a year. I still care about them both very 
deeply, and I wouldn't want to other to hurt. There is a song that I heard that 
goes "if you can't be with the one you love, love the one you're with" and 
although I already love both, I can't bare to do anything to hurt the other. And 
that is where I am now, stuck in the middle between the one I took forever to 
win and the other I just got back. Could anything else happen?


Fin
Ok, this is all true, ok I am going throgh this right now, and I dont know what 
to do, I have racked my brains and came up with nothing, please if you have any 
advice, I am open for suggestions, BTW comments and everything is welcome to 
cresentmoon16@yahoo.com
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