Title: Rebirth By: Angel Avalonia Rating: PG Email: avalonianangel@yahoo.com -------/----<@ ? @>----\-------- Dear Ami, He is gone, and yet he is still here. Oh Ami, my friend what am I to do it's been 20 years since he died in my arms, in the arms of Sailor Moon. * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ "Watch out Sailor Mars!" "Rei look out!" I watched horrified as Jedite threw himself between the blast and the woman he loved from so long ago. He died in her arms, softly whispering her name. * ~ ~ ~ ~ * ~ ~ ~ ~ * ~ ~ ~ ~ * ~ ~ ~ ~ * "Mercury Aqua Rhapsody!" I heard Ami cry out. Watched as the youma threw her attack back at her. Watched as Zoisite sacrificed himself for her. Watched as he died sobbing her name. * ~ ~ ~ ~ * ~ ~ ~ ~ * ~ ~ ~ ~ * ~ ~ ~ ~ * Venus stood by my side and watched in horrified silence as Kunzite was felled right before her eyes. She watched as he cried. She watched his lips form her name one last time. She watched as his blood pooled around him. She watched as he died, Minako's name on his lips. * ~ ~ ~ ~ * ~ ~ ~ ~ * ~ ~ ~ ~ * ~ ~ ~ ~ * Jupiter and Nephrite fought side by side. They never wavered for an instant. They never stopped fighting. They died as they lived, fighting evil, together. They only stopped when the spear joined them back to back, blood mixing with blood. Their hands joined, they whispered a promise, to me and to each other. "We'll be reborn and live again as we were meant to." And they too died. * ~ ~ ~ ~ * ~ ~ ~ ~ * ~ ~ ~ ~ * ~ ~ ~ ~ * My senshi are crying. I'm not, not yet. I hear a horrifying shriek. Then death takes one more time. The youma dies just as he takes my prince from me. He died as he has died many times before, a promise, a shattered rose, my name, and all his love for me in his soft voice. I placed his head in my lap and I held him. I rocked with him and stared into nothing as I heard his promise echoing in my mind, "My beautiful Serenity, don't cry, I'll see you soon when I'm reborn, all you have to do is wait." All I have to do wait, but that doesn't comfort me. He's gone, my Endymion's gone. I want him back so much. Venus hugs me and we cry together. A piece of a song enters my head? 'Moon so bright, night so fine, Keep your heart here with mine Life's a dream we are dreaming ?I want to spend my life time loving you? Hero's rise, Hero's fall, Rise again, win it all, ? Through our joy, through our pain, We can move worlds again? ?I want to spend my lifetime loving you? ?Where there is love, life begins Over and over again. ?Save the love,? Love is worth everything we pay.' ?I want to spend my lifetime loving you? * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ I don't blame Sailor Moon, how can I Ami, she is me and I am she. It was the youma who took him and your love too. Minako and Rei don't blame me. They're lonely too. We all miss the ones we love and now I'm sitting here on the bench, me and Mamo-chan always shared, writing you this letter. I feel something Ami, like someone is coming, someone who will put our lives back the way they were meant to be. Always, Usagi-Serenity * ~ ~ ~ ~ * ~ ~ ~ ~ * ~ ~ ~ ~ * ~ ~ ~ ~ * I finished the letter and placed it in a blue envelope to be sent to the Endymion Memorial Mental Institute. It's so sad what's happened to my best friend. She couldn't handle the loss of Zoisite. He meant so much to her and losing him was like losing a part of herself. I really miss talking to her, but I know that the only way she'll come back to me, is when Zoisite comes back. Placing the envelope in my purse, I stood up and started walking home to my apartment. As I passed Juuban High School, a yard duty officer called out to me. "Miss shouldn't you be in class." I smiled sadly at him and gave the same answer that I gave him everyday. "You know I've already graduated." He smiled at me, "Same time tomorrow Oneesan." "Of course Shingo." "Well until then Usagi." Some days I really miss being with my family, but always looking like I'm 18 does have it's down side. My own promise keeping me this way. I promised all those years ago that I would stay this way until we were together again no matter how long it took. I started walking again and was so wrapped up in my thoughts that I didn't hear Shingo's shout of warning. The next thing I knew I had been hit in the knees by a six year old. I looked down and saw a small boy clutching a red ball, his dark head curled up to his chest. I smiled, his hair was the same color as Mamo-chan's had been. I heard his friends running away, three sets of tiny footsteps. I glanced up and saw a tiny brown haired girl watching me with a curious expression on her face. She looked like a miniature Mako-chan. It brought tears to my eyes to remember my friend. I then noticed another of the children had stayed. He was brown haired as well and looked like a little six year old version of Nephrite. I gasped as a tear slid down my cheek. It was coming to an end, my friend and her love had been reborn. Soon I would find my Mamo-chan. "Don't cry." I looked down at the boy, his deep ocean blue eyes gazed up at me. They met my own startled sky blue ones. "Mamo-chan?" I whispered. I reached down and helped him stand. All the while holding his gaze. "Why are you crying?" he asked again, his eyes concerned. "I miss someone and your friend over there reminded me of her." He glanced over at his friends. When he looked back he seemed confused. "That's what I thought the first time I met Makoto-kun last year." I was startled again. This boy seems to do that to me a lot. "Really?" "Yeah, I mean she is a great friend. She's tough and isn't afraid to follow us guys around everywhere." "You seem very mature for a six year old." "Yeah, everyone tells me that." He sighed sadly. "I guess it's because of my dreams." "Dreams?" He looked down at his shoes and blushed. "I've never told anyone my dreams before." I knelt in front of him and looked deep into his eyes, making sure he did the same. "You can trust me." "I know." He broke my gaze. "I dream about a princess and a promise I made her." Mamo-chan! He was my Mamo-chan. I sighed in relief and smiling pulled a rose from my purse. "This is a gift for you Mamo-chan." Taking the rose from my hand he asked me how I knew his name. "I'm your very own angel that's why Mamo-chan." At the confused look on his face I said, "You'll understand someday Mamo-chan." I turned and walked away. @>----\-------- "Mamoru who was that?" my best friend Kay asked. "She's my angel." I responded. "Oh. What's that in your hand." I looked down at the beautiful blood red rose she had given me and shrugged. "It's a rose." I placed it on the ground near my foot. I had thought of something, a way to bring a smile to the angel's face. "Kay, do you think I can get my rose trick to work this time." "I guess." I thought really hard about making a rose appear in my hand. When I opened my eyes there it was. A steal tipped, blood red rose. I smiled, I couldn't believe it, I actually did it, I made a rose. Looking to see that she wasn't too far away, I pulled my arm back and let the rose fly. Thwang It hit a tree about two feet in front of her face. I called out to her, "Smile Usa-ko, it's sunny out." @>----\-------- I pulled the rose out of the tree and turned to look at Mamo-chan. Little Mamoru seeing the bemused look on my face laughed and threw his arms up to the sky with a big smile on his up turned face. Lowering his arms after a moment, he smiled at me again and picking up the rose I had given him, left with his white haired friend. @>----\-------- That was the last I saw of him for another ten years. This time he would be sixteen and looking every bit as handsome as he had been in his past life. Even ten years later, I still walk the same route everyday, write letter after letter to Ami and wait with Minako and Rei for the time to be right for us to reveal ourselves to the world once more. But, as for Mamo-chan, I don't know, I guess he grew up without me. @>----\-------- dear journal, it's been ten years to the day since I met my angel and since that day I've seen only glimpses of her golden hair in a crowded shopping center or street. I look for her everywhere. It's because of her that I don't date, for who could compare. I still dream of the past, except now they seem more like memories than dreams. I start high school tomorrow maybe I'll see her on the way there, who knows, I can only hope and dream? @>----\-------- The next morning dawned bright and beautiful. A group of six first year students were noted entering the school, five guys and one girl. All gorgeous, and all but the girl and brunette guy, available. Also noted by the students was a new odango haired student, who no one had seen at Juuban high school in 30 years, long before the other students had even been born. With her were three very beautiful women. One a smiling blond, the other two serious looking girls, one blue haired, one black. @>----\-------- "Ladies and gentlemen these are our new transfer students, they are incoming sophomores and I hope that you make them feel welcome. Ladies if you will introduce yourselves." "My name is Minako," the smiling blond said as she stepped forward. "I've lived in England for the past 20 years and was really glad when Usagi called me and told me that she had found my sweetie." She smiled. A white haired boy, third row to the right and five seats back, gasped, as a sudden look of recognition crossed his face. "Mina-chan?" Minako half laughed, half sobbed as her long lost love, Kunzite rushed to the front of the cafeteria and hugged her. "Kay?" As they held each other, the girl and the brunette freshmen stood up and hand in hand walked to the stage where the girls were. The girl looked at Usagi and the other three girls for a moment before softly saying their names, "Minako-chan, Rei-chan, Ami-chan, Usagi-chan." @>----\-------- I looked closely at the girl. She was tall, with dark brown hair and green eyes. "Makoto?" She launched herself into my arms. "Usagi-chan!" I looked at her companion, "Nephrite?" He nodded. "Yes my princess." I laughed from happiness. @>----\-------- I turned away from Usagi and the others. Where was my love, where was Zoisite. I tried to call his name but my voice wouldn't work. It had been too long since I had last spoken. It had been thirty years and one day since I had last spoken. The last words I had spoken had been a promise to wait for Zoi to come back to me. After a moment I found my voice, though it was rusty from disuse. "Zoisite? Zoi? where are you?" I could feel my friends eyes on me, their amazement that I had actually said something. When I didn't hear a response, I started to silently sob out my anguish and heartache. "Zoey, you insensitive pig, get your teacher-lovin' butt up here." Nephrite called out to the room. After a moment I heard the unmistakable sound of a book snapping shut. "I'm coming. I just had to finish the paragraph I was reading." I half laughed, half sobbed. He had always been like that. He always had to finish what he started. I watched his feet as he strode towards me, never lifting my gaze until he had stopped a foot in front of me. "Ami-chan, I missed you." "I missed you too Zoi." I looked into his deep gray eyes and fell for him all over again. As fresh tears started to slid down my cheek, he gathered me in his arms and whispered the words I had waited thirty years to hear. "Aishiteru (I Love you) Ami-chan." "Aishiteru Zoi-chan." I cried as I hugged him tighter. @>----\-------- I being me, Hino Rei, started to yell at the top of my lungs for my guy. "Jedite, you get your cute butt up here right now or I'm never kissing you ever again!" "That threat didn't work a thousand years ago, it didn't work thirty years ago, and it's certainly not going to work now Pyro!" "Who you calling a pyro, Ice-boy!" "God, I missed you Rei." He said softly as he very passionately kissed me. @>----\-------- I watched as my friends matched up with their loves. It made me sad to think that I had yet to find Mamo-chan again. I walked away from them and left the commotion that was building within the cafeteria. I kept walking until I reached the bench in the park, where I had written Ami that letter ten years ago. I had given her hope, and then today ten years and a day later, she had her love back, and I was still alone. I sat down and stared blindly at the lake before me. I didn't even notice when someone sat next to me. "Are you alright Usa-ko?" I didn't really react, after all I had fantasized about him asking me that question before, so I thought nothing of it being asked now. "No." "Why Usa-ko?" "Because you're gone Mamo-chan. And Sailor Moon and the senshi are gone and I'm alone." "You're not alone Usa-ko, I'll always be with you." "I know Mamo-chan, but until I find you in your new life, I'll still be alone." That's when I felt the hand on my shoulder. "Stop looking Usa-ko, I'm right here." I looked to my right and there he was. He gathered me into his arms and let me cry out all my pain and anguish, until all that was left was him and me, and our love for one another. @>----\-------- We waited for almost three years more before we could finally marry our loved ones. It was torture, and yet it wasn't. We got to know each other all over again. And in the process we all fell even deeper in love than we had been thirty years ago. @>----\-------- It was a sunny day on the 30th of June. There were so many flowers and all I could think was that I was finally marrying my angel, my Usa-ko. When she came out she was wearing a beautiful white dress with gilded circles and pearls on the bodice and very light pink, gossamer fairy wings. Her buns (odango) were decorated with pearls and she wore a golden pearl bracelet on her right wrist. She was stunning. I wore a lavender tuxedo with a matching cape, lined in silver. Clutched in my hand, the lt. lavender mask which would complete my royal vestments and finish out the coronation ceremonies being held after the reception dinner. @>----\-------- I can hardly believe it, I'm marrying Mamo-chan and being crowned Queen of the Moon. Rei of course currently having a death grip on my crown. I sighed and answered the priest, as I looked lovingly into Mamo-chan's eyes. "I do." -------/----<@ ? @>----\-------- Can you believe it I'm done. This one came to me one day as a side trip from my book. I'm currently stuck on Chapter 16 of it and have already started chapters 17, 19, and 22. my book is driving me nuts but can you blame me. Between 16 credit hours worth of classes, school work, my radio show, and the musical I'm in, it's a wonder I can get anything done and stay as sane as I am. Oh well you didn't read this to have me telling you my problems. Tell me what you think, avalonianangel@yahoo.com Anyways standard SM is not mine disclaimers apply. And of course I do not own 'I Want to Spend My Lifetime Loving You' from the Zorro Sound Track, some big company owns it. ? 3/23/2000 Avalon Inc.