Hi again, its me Gwen. First I would like to thank Artemis and Luna
for being so kind and posting my stories. Also, to Andrea Hui for
doing the same. Everyone should be happy since, without them, nobody
would be reading my little story. Okay first off. I would like to
thank all those who have written me, flamed me, loved me and worshiped
me.  Oh yeah, before I forget. Please be understanding. I have college
and a full time job to worry about and I can't always get my stories
out every week and about the stories being short. Well I really don't
have the time to make them longer unless I am truly inspired and have
a day off to do it. Oh yeah sorry about the grammar and spelling. I
could do better, but there is only so much that Grammatik and spell
check can do. Unless I could have a real nice person who could
proofread for me. (HINT!HINT!) Okay, now on with the show.

A little Japanese:

Sepuka- Ritual Suicide
Okaasan- mother
Gomen- Sorry
Gomen Nasai- Very Sorry
Ojiisan- Grandfather
Otouson- Father

Destiny's Child 4

--Usagi

I sat there for what seemed to be hours, days maybe years.  I had no
notion of time as  I watched the moon make its daily journey across
the sky.  I should have counted myself lucky for not getting raped or
murdered. Despite the fact that the senshi have dispelled most of the
youmas in Tokyo, there still leaves even scarier monsters.  Sadly the
monsters often looked very human.  But no, there were no such
confrontations. I didn't care anyway if something did happen. Why
should I?  The future as I know it now is gone.  I couldn't take
making up with Mamoru. Even if it meant the destruction of Crystal
Tokyo. What's the use with marriage if you cannot trust the one you
love.  How can someone rule a kingdom without trust? No I cannot marry
Mamoru now. Nor ever. With no marriage, there will be no Neo-Queen
Serenity or Neo-King Endymion.  Which also means, no Chibi-Usa. The
thought strikes me and I feel my heart constrict and my eyes renew
with tears I didn't know I still had. Ohh.. mesume.. Gomen nasai....
What has happened to you? Has all this changed the future? Will I ever
see you again?  More tears fall. I raise the star locket and gaze upon
the picture of the four of us. I watch as the crimson of my blood
begins to mix with the strawberry blond of your hair.  More tears
fall.  Oh Kami! Why must my world end this way?  I close my eyes and
suddenly begin to see the memories surge through me like water through
a broken dam.  I see you now.  The beautiful the child who loved to
play in the sun. The mischievous little spore who loved to play tricks
on me.  Finally the grown up little girl who would someday be known as
Chibi-Moon. Oh mesume... Has your future been taken from you? Have you
disappeared?  Perhaps I could try to find it in my heart to forgive....
"No!," I viciously cry out into the night. I look at the star locket.
I could never forgive him.. Or her.. For this atrocity.. Never.. I
loved both of them; trusted them with my life. If this is how they
return the favor then... I feel the knife of betrayal twist itself in
my heart once again.
A movement in the water catches my attention. Mists suddenly appear
out of nowhere, only to spread and show four figures standing on a row
boat. I briefly wonder on the stupidity of standing on a row boat,
remembering back to when I attempted the same feat, when a familiar
face shows itself to me.  The boat moved forward, propelled by nothing
except the waves. I watch uncaring and breath out her name.
"Setsuna-san."

-Mamoru

Blood.  That's all I see. Blood. USAKO NO! I watch as her face cracks
into a million pieces and then I watch as blood begins to blot out her
image.  Usako? My love. My life. Gomen Nasai. She cannot hear me.  I
put head in my hands mixing it with the blood that flowed profusely
from my knuckles. Wounds that suddenly appeared when she broke her
mirror.  Oh Kami! I never how close our bond would be. I saw what she
did. I listened to her thoughts. I felt her pain. Her anguish. Her
anger. And worse of all I watched her go insane. All because of me.
ME! The grade A idiot.  The most egotistical, moronic, jerk ever to be
reborn on this planet. Tears. Blood. They both mix in my hand. I can
no longer feel her.  I don't know if I should be relieved or
terrified. She may be dead right now. No. I would feel it. I would be
dead if she died. That's the closeness of a soul bond. Our bond. A
bond that has lasted for a millennium. A bond which I have broken.
Tears flow.  I should have gone after her. No, she would have killed
you. She threw you against the wall. How would you expect her to
react, you were sleeping with her best friend. You should count
yourself lucky that she didn't kill you on the spot. Death is better
than spending your life without her.  Than why did you do it. Silence.
For once the voices stopped, as if expecting the other to answer. None
dared. Perhaps I should answer the question.

-Rei

Red. That's all I see. I look down on the ground and watch as my blood
drips and congeals into a perfect circle. I smile. Leave it to me to
bleed properly, at least I won't die so messily. I stare at the knife
in my hand. How symbolic. The knife that I am going to kill myself
with killed my mother too. I laugh. What irony. Of course no one knows
what happened to her. No one. Only ojii-san and otouson.  I lied to my
friends, to Usagi, Mamoru, everyone. How easily one lie became another
and another. My mother never died after giving birth to me. No.
Okaasan died because she found out about my fathers mistress.  In her
grief, my mother committed Sepuka. Ritual. Suicide. It was fitting
that I, her only daughter would do the same.  What was the old saying?
"Like mother, like daughter." Ojiisan thought I didn't know where he
put the knife. I often wondered why he kept it. Perhaps to remind my
father every time he visited me of what his sins have done to our
family. Now I have it. Its my turn. I have disgraced my family.  I
have dishonored myself and my friendship to my best friend. I have
betrayed and lied and cheated. Tears fall. Gomen Usagi-chan. Gomen
Mamoru. Gomen ojiisan. Its too late for apologies. Perhaps if I would
have explained it to the scouts. At least they would have forgiven me.
No. I would never forgive me. I knew what I was doing. I was aware. I
even planned out the whole thing. Inviting Mamoru over a little
earlier than the others. I wanted to see if we could have done it. We
almost have before. Before everything got in the way. Youmas. Beryl.
Usagi being the moon princess. I wanted to see if he still felt the
same about me. That was such a stupid thing to do. Someone would have
been at the temple earlier. Never did I think it would be Usagi. Its
too late. Usagi knows. Everyone knows. Rei's mind wandered back to
when she was faced by the accusing glares of the scouts.
"Rei! How could you?"
"What made you think you could get away with this?"
"She trusted you, we all did."
"She loved you like a sister."
"You couldn't even control yourself."
"Did you ever think of what would happen if Usagi found out?"
Soon, all three turned and walked away.  Then Mercury stopped and
turned back around. I looked up and stared at the blue scout awaiting
a slap, a litany of curses, anything. Mercury did nothing, but to
continue to stare impassively at me.
"For what you did to Usagi, to Chibi Usa, to the future. I don't know
how you could live with yourself."
Mercury then turned and walked away.
I have really screwed up now. I look at the flames again. Red. Orange.
Reflecting off my little pool of blood. I will be punished for what I
did. I know that now. That wasn't a psychic premonition. That was a
fact. I can feel the world has become unbalanced. For some reason, I
know it had something to do with me.

Okay. First I would like to say that in no way do I encourage suicide.
Suicide is very bad and it is not the way to solve your problems.
Second. I do not have a fascination with blood. It's just there to set
the mood. Three. I said the trial would start, but I haven't totally
finished it. So I decided to put out half of the original story. I
finished the trial chapter, but I didn't like it so I am going to redo
it. Well, send your comments, flowery phrases and flames to
neene96@yahoo.com.

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